there's no world outside;

sad

11:51 PM

heys.. two entries in a day. total different mood.
stupid sam requested to retain. argh...! our class is less one guy. feels like im gonna lose a friend. *sad sad*
im angry!
and... lotsa pretty gurls are gonna come my class. u wont believe it.
michelle and her clique. consisting of jennier. wah... 05S09 is gonna be so popular with the guys...
eric didnt get promoted. zhihao is leaving. yanshan is not gonna be there. huixian too.
i'll miss all these people so much.
im sad. very sad. =(

happy new yr!

9:18 PM

first of all.. happy new year to all! its the year 2006! abandon all the bad memories of the previous year and strive harder once again....
once again, i spent the night counting down at home with my beloved SCV. haha... the Gaoxiong and Taipei count down concerts have really accompanied me for... exactly 2 years. wenn has also been counting down with me for exactly 2 years too. im was sitting at the exact same spot of my sofa as laz yr... while talking to mandy on the phone.. commenting.. singing... the time to... 10.. 9... 8... arrived..! both of us were so excited...! as soon as... the numbers reach.. 3... 2...1.. both of us started screaming, HAPPY NEW YEAR!
"wow, look at the fireworks! omg... so nice.. wow wow wow wow! omg! hao cool oh! wah!"
haha.. these are the exacts words that we actually exclaimed for like.... 5 mins? haha....
the fireworks over at Taipei 101 were so cool...!!
handphone is filled with messages from my friends sending me their greetings for the coming yr. totally appreciate that. it is this time where u receive messages from friends where u havent contact for ages.
lets all hope that the yr 2006 would be a better yr for all of us. come to think of it, we're growing out of the teenage years already. we're turning to adults now. i mean, all of us. all the dragon babies of my batch. lets all watch each other grow and mature together. support and help each other along the way.
lessies: we will always stay together. lynn.weii.wenn.yuu.pau.mimi.

damn, my sickening morning sickness is back. argh, i hate it! since holidays started, i havent been good. i stopped taking my vitamin c pills. now, my sickness is back. haiks... bless me. haha, sudden change of mood. anyways, im gonna stop here.
tata!
happy new year!

feelin puky.

7:27 AM

hey yo yo... check it up man... im blasting eminem now. my name is.. my name is..my name is.. marshall matters, ure the man!

anyways, school's starting in 3 days time. Year 2005 is ending in 1 day time. oh man... i dread the coming yr. ive got good memories of yr 2005, but it wasnt exactly wonderful. but i gotta admit that it has been a year where ive been exposed to lotsa different things. i learnt about life. the way it is. i meet more people. i changed.
i know the coming yr wouldnt be easy. in fact, it will be the toughest of all... but, im determind! well...at least, i wish i am. haha...
more bittersweet coming up! nahx.... i'll survived through them.
i'll come up with my new year resolutions soon. haha... it will be whole list. guess.. i'll post it up.
i havent got enough time.i haven complete my homework. i haven finished the chem indepedent learning. i haven shop. i wish there's more hrs to a day. 24 hours just wasnt enough for me! argh...

i went swimming with aunt and tart just now.. its my 2nd trip to cck stadium. i still dont like the showering area. feels kinda dirty to me. i prefer Bukit batok's swimmin complex. had pastamania for dinner. it feels kinda weird though.. i love cheese to the core...... but today, after the meal.. the cheese are making me feel like puking. *blehx*
im gonna go out with my brothers tomorrow. its gonna be a siblings outing. haha... feels kinda weird. but... nothing beats kinship.
in the meantime, im gonna prepare myself for the upcoming year.
bless me.

pics.

11:46 PM

pictures speaks a thousand words.

paul frank

11:30 AM

hey.. this is my new duper cute blogskin =)
paul frank!
but something about this... i can only put a limit of 6 links.... felt so bad having to delete one of my friends. but i guess.. i'll change the skin soon.
till then, i like this orangy thingy.
anyways, spent the whole day at home today. finally, being home is still the best.
went shopping alone yesterday. bought some makeup stuff and a 3/4 espirit pants. feeling totally satisfied.
haha...
alright, i'll keep this short.
gotta go!

my expression.

9:37 PM

i dont know why i am feeling this way. i dont feel like doing anything at all. i only wish to lay on my bed and waste my time away. i feel lethagic. emotionless. why the sudden feeling? i dont know why either....
everybody is changing.. everything is changing... whether its for the good or bad, you decide yourself. i just gotta learn to adapt to the way things are... this is the only chance of survival, i guess.
each and everyone of us sin. the only difference is the impact of the consequences that have resulted from ya actions.
some of us are superficial. some of us have strayed. few of us remain true. which is the correct track? nobody is to judge. you decide yourself.
some people out there are making themselves suffer by hating others. why not learn to accept and open up your heart? you will feel much relieved and definitely happier.
each individual are leading their own lives. only you can help yourself. i guess, this is independence. everybody gotta learnt to be independent. this is also the way mother nature is.
do you believe in fate?
well.... i do not have an answer yet.
people step in and out of your life. some leave a lil' footprint. some leave a significant mark. these are just characters in your own drama. whether they are the lead or not, they will definitely affect you somehow or another. i believe all of us will mature.
xmas have gone pass. soon another year is coming. everything is gonna start all over again. chinese new yr. march holidays. mid-yr exams. tonnes of tests and homework. feeling stressed. june holidays. exams. national day. september holiday. the deciding exam of the yr. dec holidays. chistmas. and the cycle continues... everybody is gonna start getting busy with their lives. this is life. its just a mundane rountine. you gotta find the joy in life yourself. friends and family. they create an impact in my life. they are very important to me.

alright, this is a sudden expression of what i am feeling right now.
i've sinned by indulging myself in lotsa funtime. i know i've neglected my studies.
but i dont feel like doing anything right now.

trip to the bank.

3:39 AM

hehx! im feeling so duper full right now.. oh gosh.. fat fat fat! tummy is out le las!
anyways.. ive done quite a bit today..
wakie early to go Standard Chartered bank to cash out the cheque.. char and me are feeling so lost in the bank las.. but finally, managed to obtain our first pay.. in cash! ta da! the purplish, blue and orange note smiling so sweetly at me...
took a cab down to yew tee posb bank to cash in the money...
i would like to declare... wo zhang da le! hee... first trip to the bank alone without mama oh...
alright! now... i've got the money.. im gonna shop shop shop~!
went home.. changed... met up with aunt and wenwen... went HBF for dim sum buffet. oh man... that was a fulfilling meal. shopped a lil'... took bus back to causeway point.
let me tell u what's fate... my beloved weii and wenn happened to be there too! this is total coincidence man.. alright, minus weii. was so happy when 3 of us met up at burger king. i havent met my baobei for such long time las.... anyways, i'll be meeting them again tmr. can't wait!
currently, im at my granny's place.. they've prepared a sumptuous meal consisting of pasta... spaghetti.. ham.. bacon.. salad.. mussels soup.. chicken wings.. champagne.. red wine... this is what is call... wide variety.
once again, im feeling duper full and fat right now.
haha...

alright, that's about it for today! i would like to wish all... MERRY CHRISTMAS!
love all.....

duper bz week.

1:34 AM

time passes soo fast.. and i haven't been coming online for almost a week.. well, been rather busy this week. alright, let's sum things up...
monday: went to the beach with 05s09. played a lil' vball. tanned. kayak. bath. dinner. home. not many turned up.. so it wasnt tt fun. but was really glad that daniel, kelvin and zhihao can make it. considering the pathetic no. of guys i have in my class... stupid sam! argh.. havent seen him for almost 2 mths.. ok. i miss sam.
tuesday: went karoke with my IBM cliques. well, its sorta my first time at a K. all ten of us turned up.. it was so cool... as expected, i dont know any of the songs there. haha.. at least most of them i have never listen before. only managed to get the mic in my hands for bout a total of..... 5 mins? haha... but it was cool. we can actually form our own choir! gurls power! oh, weiliang really sound like jay chou!
wednesday: went to the beach again. but this time round.. i went with mandy, brian and stanley. haha.. though it was just 4 of us.. it was just as fun. cuz... its us.. zhi ji ren. the feeling is more familiar. everyone can really let loose and have fun. once again, vball.. kayak.. but! the most happening thing was.....
*few mths back* went beach with 05S09, had great difficulty trying to get the double kayak back on shore, these guys offered their help. (they're hunks man... serious) haha.. anyways, we managed to get the kayak loaded with tonnes of water back on shore. and guess what!?! one of the guy actually said hi to me... yeah.. anyways...... *back to present* i met that group of guys at the beach again. mandy said he recognized me, cuz he kept looking. well, this is FATE! haha... but nothing happened on that day.. we had our fun... bath. dinner. town. yeah.. that's about it.
thursday: went out with my primary school mates. it has really been sometime since i last met them. some was bout a yr... there's 2 where i havent met for 4 yrs... the atmosphere was kinda weird when everybody arrived. haha... but, we managed to break the ice during lunch at cartel. i had the drink, tropical zest, it was nice. its a fruity drink. after lunch, we shopped around.. steph and khek yan went off first. Me, yini, meiting and weixian went for dinner and finally, photo time! haha...
then, met up with stanely to accompany him to buy christmas present. haha.. i was totally dead beat man... but, cannot let stan go shop himself, cuz he will be lonely. haha.... managed to make him send me a xmas card though. =x
friday: met up with my IBM clique at tanjong pagar to collect my first ever paycheck! haha... but i wasnt feeling any excitness or whatsoever. cuz... LNG! argh.... came home immediately after collection. feeling sad that i couldnt join them to town. =(
anyways... seriously hope that everybody will still be keeping in contact. today is sorta ma' last meeting with the rest of them. sad sad sad. i will definitely miss everyone of them. jasmine, meixiu. apple. kelvin. henry. hanying. weiliang. angela. u guys rock!

alright, this is a really long entry. haha.. to those reading this, ur eyes must be feeling tired now huh... go take a rest! jump right onto ya comfy comfy bed and sleep till tmr! haha... i promote sleeping! it a extremely healthy activity.
christmas is coming!! im gonna meet up with my girls... its the 3rd yr we're spending xmas together.. =)
lessies will always be the greatest!

anxiety over studies

5:41 AM

im feeling partially satisfied with myself for the replenished sleep.. i'll catch up with all of it real soon..
finally, work at IBM has ended... once again, it was a good experience in a pleasent environment with great people. =)

was sleeping the whole day on friday.. my fav show da chang jin has always screened it finale yesterday.. its really a superb show.. wouldnt mind watching it all over again..
went granny's place today. am a good child today. act. nothing much to blog bout for these few days.
but.. im really feeling anxious over studies. i guess i'll only have the time to study only during the laz week of dec. i haven't done my chemistry homework. my math homework is half completed. i haven't touched econs for 2 mths. i am in so deep shit.
nahz.. dont wanna talk bout it anymore...
ciaoz!

last day of work

4:39 PM

alright.. once again... i slept on the train.. i slept on the bus.. i could have just slept while walking. i wish....

went for dinner with ibm friends to ceni's Phin's steakhouse yesterday.. ahx.. we're really spendthrift. we havent even get our pay las.. and we're spending money now.. haha.. anyways... its cool to go out in a big group. i like it... serious. after dinner, we went for a lil' walk at wisma and far east.. haha.. i suggested all 8 of us to walk in a line to block other people's way.. haha.. it was so attention seeking! while we're walking, i was too engrossed looking at this tree that 'sings' haha... and i bang right into weiliang who sudden brake las.. then, kelvin banged into me when i sudden brake too. funny.
oh, i met tze wen too. he looked as if he hadn't slept for a week. its been a very long long time since i hanged out with him.. we really should find some time for a reunion.
aight, these few days im feeling like a typical scorpio. sometimes i'll feel that this person whom i've trusted.. befriend.. crapped.. wasn't that worthy of my true friendship. as in, those kinda friendship that i had with lessies. i know i shouldnt compare but....
anyways, i complained everything to brian yesterday. hah. good listening ear =)
managed to release a lil' anger. but one thing's for sure... i wont think too much about it, sometimes the more you think about it.. the more unhappy you become. i'm sure things will revert back to normal. piece of advice: maintain a good heart.

i'll be getting my pay like.. very late! most prob 27/12. but by then, sch would be starting soon! i wanna spend! its my first ever paycheck.. its a good experience though. really enjoyed my first job here over at IBM. my colleagues are all great ppl. Shoutout to all of ya: thanx for the times we had together, you guys were great! oh... for ya info.. its the last day of work today. feeling kinda mixed emotions. i hate the mornings.. i love the people. but no worries, we're meeting up nex week! =)
im all b0oked the whole of next week... gotta spend my last 2 weeks wisely. but, i wouldnt have the time to study. argh.... dislike myself.
alright, this is a long entry...

im sitting in the office.
typing on the lappy.
listening to forever young cd.
feeling so tired.
mixed emotions. =) =(
i miss my lessies.
i miss my boys.
its 0859, thursday in the IBM company over at Eunos.
its the last day of work.
i'll miss my IBM's clique.

mornin aft perhaps love

4:27 PM

heya.. im still feeling tired... that's all i can say.. imagine the rate of speed im typing now... 1 alphabet every 3 sec i guess.. ohhh....
anyways, went to watch perhaps love with my IBM friends yesterday after work.. everyone was feeling so tired las.. i was so so so worried that the show wouldnt be nice.. well, the starting of the show did not.. let me stress.. DID NOT prove my worries wrong. it was indeed kinda boring.. haha. felt so worried las. cuz i was the out who initated this movie outing.. and i dragged like.. 8 people along with me =x. henry and kelvin both fell asleep... haha.. at least weiliang stayed concentrated... well, it was a good experience though.. having so many ppl watching movie together.. i like it =)
and.... obviously, everyone of us is feeling the fatigue today.. *yawn* hah, anyways... we're all tired together what.. so its OKAY! haha...
i swear i muz at least sleep till 2 pm on friday.

alright, im missing my people already. but we've got an outing planned out already.. so im happy
! hopefully gerald can join us at the beach.. i haven't seen him for soooo long.. i miss my couz!
hehx.. i miss his.. "you know whattttttt?" =)

alright... getting lazy to type..
i'll be back!

tired...

4:18 PM

ahhh... im feeling so so tired now... oh gosh.. it happens every tuesday.. dont understand why..
im in the office now staring at the lappy and typing.... ma' eyelids feels as if they weigh a ton. i could have just slept anywhere i go.. i sleep on the train... i sleep on the bus too..
i know up till now.. what ya reading.. has also made ya feel lethargic too... guess what? that's just tooo bad! haha... nahx.. just jokin...

im gonna go on a IBM outing later to tampiness mall.. haha.. we're gonna go catch some movie, most prob Perhaps Love. we've decided to make ourselves drop dead tired for work next day... ahh, who cares... its the 2nd laz day of work!
last day of work is on THURSDAY! im swear im gonna revert back to the piggy me on FRIDAY!
char didnt come for work today.. im gonna be so lonely today. BUT, its okay.. ive got other guys with me too =)
can't wait for the next meeting with my people... waiting impatiently.
oh, i havent study anything at all. i am in so deep shit.
that's about it...
ciaoz.

the best day

12:28 AM

i love yesterday! you guys are the greatest...! the feeling is indescribable... its the happiest moments.. haha
hey! im not exaggerating.. im serious..
was out with.. mandy, brian, joey and stanely yesterday.. finally got to watch chicken little! its really meant for kids.. haha.. so kiddy! but ive got something to say.. i hate lido theatres.. they really suck man... yucks.

haha.. alright, back to track..
we watched movie at lido.. then went for dinner.. asked jon jung to help us take pictures.. oh yea.. joey's way of saying goodbye was indeed special.. cosy cosy feel! hee... wenn and me was totally taken aback. oh! joey lost weight..! built up his chest.. looking much better now.. haha.. gurls, ive got a guy to recommend.... joey yap! haha.. interested plz msg me.. =p
brian.. you gotta put on weight..! stanley.. the most on.
mandy had a sleepover at my place yesterday night.. its also the first time im having a friend sleeping over.. its so fun! imagine the person sleeping beside u is ya bestest. haha.. and the first thing that we do when we wakie was.... TAKE PICTUERS! haha.. imagine.. with the ultra messy hair.. and stinky breath. haha..
these are really moments to remember....
brian. joey. stanely. wenn. weii. yuu. derrick. pingg. love you guys the most le.
MUACCKXXXZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!

inconvenience

12:04 AM

hey.. for those reading.. so sorry.. the fonts are really hard to read.. im trying to edit it.. but no time. haha...
as the phrase goes.. sorry for the inconvenience caused =x
i'll TRY to edit it as soon as possible...

oh.. im gonna go watch chicken little later! yeah...
alright, i'll update u guys again.
my tagboard is back too! =)

mundane routine

5:50 AM

hey guys.. im back once again...
wow, left the office really late today.. bout 1915... but it wasnt cuz of the work.. it was because of our lil' chat with joanna... yeah.. haha.. we really enjoy hanging out with her. discovered that she's a really really frank person.. i guess.. she must have come a long way in life.. therefore, having a different perspective of thinking now. cool.
well, i seriously feel like im wasting my life or rather precious time away. i could have spend it doing more meaningful stuff. but... well, since ive already taken up the job.. i might as well finish with it. perserverance! haha.. actually, it was more for the $$$ =x
but im seriously worried for studies.. i couldnt find the time to study at all. it was only on sunday where i relinquish my status of a student. haha..
oh yeah.. im really cannot stand office work.. as in.. 8-5 those kinda.. its sooo mundane! u lead ya life doing such boring stuff.... omg... no challenage. no excitement at all. okok, all these are just my own opinion aight.
but.. this job is really slack man! haha.. but somehow, it gets tedious at times. COUNTING DOWN.....

at least there's something for me to look forward to... this coming weekend! im finally gonna go watch my chicken little! my long anticipated movie... yeah... at least mandy and brian has promised to go with me...
brian: hey man, u better dont say you cannot make it at the laz min huh, if nt ur gonna be in deep shit. hmph..
haha.. anyways, yeah.. its a outing with my guys again.. love it so much!
yeah, i shld find sometime to go visit my weii at causeway point. haha.. wonder what sales is she doing this time...
alright, guess i shall just end here. will be back soon...
6 days more...

slackin' away...

7:44 PM

hey! there's something wrong with blog right? please answer yes.. cuz... ny links and tagboard went missing! i can't edit the date and time too... argh.. this is so irritating.. guess i shall do it manually then...
wah.. work today is slack like nobody's business... ive been free from morning till now. currently chatting with my beloved wenn and brian on web messenger..
life is really getting boring man... somebody... find me something/somebody or whatever...
ok, im planning schedule for my weekends now.. hopefully it will be a fulfilling one.. if not. its gonna be another wasted holis for me..
alright, let me see.. what else to update..

oH.. im going for lunch now.. tata!
will update again...
mwa!

sat at work

4:44 PM

hey.. im currently in the office on a SATURDAY morning! its 8.46am at eunos now.. argh.. im missing my most wanted sleep.. but anyways, its just for the time being... guess i shall just sacriface it for $$$. =)

big annoucement: im feeling handicapped today cuz i forgot to bring my handphone out! its the 2nd time already! argh...

went out with my gurls yest.. it was just a normal dinner outing.. but im feelin sadden that we can only meet for like what.. 4 hrs per week? sometimes more than that... haiks... i know all of us are leading our own lives.. doing our own things. but, we will always be reunite in the heart. i know it.. if u gurls are reading, gotta try our best to spend more time with each other if possible aight?

oh, joanna came back just now.. nt sure whether is to visit us or what.

guess what? all of us went cafe cartel during lunch... haha.. though joanna paid first, we must pay her back las. maybe after we get our pay. yeah...

char and me are 2 pathetic souls man.... so sua ku.. actually kena tease for not going tampiness mall before. hey, come on... we dont stay near here what...

there's something that is makin me angry too! this darn bus driver las!

i forgot to bring my ezlink card out with me what.. he dont believe that im a student and demand me to pay $1.10 las.. that's adult fare! come on man, stupid bus driver! i'll remember you! hmph!

oh, i wanna watch chicken little! my zathura is out! i want my piggy sleep!

i saw this phrase on the train yest, i like it...

"the North Pole just called. You are Santa's favourite ths year."

okok, i gotta get back to work.. boss is here.. bye los!