there's no world outside;

common test mood.

8:52 AM

ive been using alot of the freaking F word this week. somehow, i just couldnt control my temper and that word just blurts out of my mouth.
i am so disappointed with my results. no improvement. im so stuck with that freakin grades.
somehow, i discover that whenever i get back my confidence, i'll be hit back to my original spot with a uper huge 'thud', then i have to start building up my confidence again. i hate the feeling of disappointment.

this is the turning point of my life. whatever i do this yr will determine the rest of my life. you understand the utmost impact its gonna have on me? i remember telling myself that im gonna go into the lecture hall and trash the hell-outta the damn shit paper. but, i guess... i lost.
BUT, no matter what... i have to continue with this race. its a race against myself. i wil overcome all odds and survive. i will and i have to. seriously, i guess i've learn alot this yr, in terms of life and all. sometimes, things just dont go the way you want it to be.

anws, sorry to all if ive been rather crude with this entry. but, i just need to vent my anger. i'll really like to express my gratitude to brian toh. he's always there for me. he's always able to motivate me. lessies, im missin u gurls.

now, the battle continues.

pics taken on 25/3

6:45 AM

haha... here's some pictures to share with all.
mandy: i really miss ya presence. but, ure having fun over in HK too! anws, anticipating ya return =)

alright, first pic. haha... first of all, DO NOT BE MISTAKEN.
i was being man, he was being just a lil' feminine. haha..

first pic of the day. brian treated all of us to Venezia ice-cream. haha.. bro will always be the best! haha.. i discover that he's always treating me ice-cream. anws, it was a really short reunion with brian and stan. both gotta rush off for soccer and wushu respectively. humph!

a confrontation you may call...

orh, sandwiched between derrick and joey. not feeling good. haha! they better not whack me.

come on, we're just trying to be funny. we did our best. hahha....

human models up for sale... anyone? take ya pick.

lastly, we're stuck.

haha.... lynn is trying to be a lil lame here..
love you peepz the most le.
mwa!

3 days of 'holis''

3:11 AM

hi all people... first of all...
i really dread going back school tmr... i do not wish to collect back my results at all.
time really passes so fast. now, i think 24hrs a day is totally insufficient for me.
anws, lets just leave that to tmr aight...

friday's shoppin date with the girls was fun. took pretty pictures too. =)
chris: im waiting for ya pics.............
met up with baobao too. poor bao gotta leave for work halfway. but stil, it was still a moment of reunion.
saturday, haha.... met out with my pretty people. really miss them sooo much. weii is looking so blissfully in love =)
oh, weii and me was saying we're like some headquarters or temporay motel for the guys...
first.. stanley met us, then brian, then derrick and joey.
towards the end of the day, leaving only weii, derrick joey and myself.
we took lotsa pictures on that day. haha... everybody is still staying the same. even though we havent met for sometime, but i know... we're gonna stay together for life.
sunday is family day for me.

i am greatly disappointed with somebody in my life. total disgrace.
dont wanna talk about it at all.

anyways, pray hard for my results tmr.

after common test

2:46 AM

hey hey!
first thing first... ive survived the common test. woo-hoo! im gonna play... play.. PLAY!
haha...

anyways, im happy for wenn =)
message to wenn: hey you! i havent even do what i wanna do.. ya actions so fast le.. haha.. gotta tell me bout it man... he should thanx pingg and me! okay, let him know that he owe me a treat!

alright, back to my life. actually, nothing much to update. ive been rather no-life all these while..
but im really missin my people so much that im looking through my phone's pictures everyday over and over again. alright, u can classify me as nostalgic. i think i am.

anticipating the grand reunion.
gonna be out with s09's clique tmr! its shopping day! its an all-girls date!
we'll always remain the best. oh, recently i dont know why... the gurls are into this trend of smacking each other's butt. i got smacked twice when im talkin to teacher las! that was kinda irritating. haha.... but, ahz... its fun =)
anyways., i GUESS i'll be back soon.
so, wait-up.

heartwalk cip

6:42 AM

hey guys.. this is gonna be a long entry... so... sit back and relax. =)

well, took my GP and Math paper this week. studied alot. sleep very little. i hate taking tests in the LTs. our necks are like SO stiff after the papers las... bad organisation.
anyways, we had our PJ road run on friday... oh man, and i thought Darwin was a dead house. in the end, Darwin turned out to be the best las. haha.. we were actually the best house on that day. haha... instantly, i felt glory tt i belong to Darwin, not considering that the house colour is GREY. it toally sucks las.. makes all of us look like criminal. blehz...
but now, i still prefer other houses colours.

SATURDAY
S09 took part in the heartwalk cip program today. come on las, lynn actually woke up at 5am.. eeee, was feeling so relunctant. argh... but the most imporant thing is that, ive witness the ugliest side of singaporeans today.
Singaporeans are really blood suckers for free goods los. come on las, its not like we're some undeveloped country where everybody is malnourished right? do your actually have to be so aggresive when it comes to such things?
alright, first thing that infuriate me...
we had to do crowd control. the people are queuing to take part in some spin-the-wheel thingy, so they can win FREE stuff again, but some airheads actually cut queue las... we persuaded, pleaded, convinced and shouted for them to, QUEUE UP! nobody listens! and the freaking ppl behind think its our fault las! darn it. in the end? they ended the game. hahaha...
oh wells, nobody's gonna get anything at all.
second thing. oh, this is a very fun experience.
we had to form a heart formation when everybody come back frm the walk. S09 was standing ard the heart holdin lotsa ballons. as shown below.

once i start giving out one ballon, i got ATTACKED like nobody's business. everybody was coming towards me like honey and bees u know.. yea, they were like.. give me one. give me one. give me one. poor lynn was like, okok. wait can? relax relax. dont gan jiong las! thats enough for all..! argh, damn ppl.

but some of the uncles and aunties are still kind enough to help me untangle the strings, cuz i cant pull out any ballons at all. strings were all tangled up. we did our pioneer cheer and danced aerobics alongside with the aunties. haha. was so high then.

alright, the laz and also the ugliest sight.

ask them, whats ya purpose of comin for the walk? their answer will definitely be "for the FREE goodies las!"

typical people. okay, so its time to distribute goodies. i seriously hate crowd control. okay, so we're going ard distributing water to them, one uncle actually stopped me and complained to me his unhappiness las.. he was like, the organization suck las, the queue is not moving, u guys are makin us stand under the hot sun and now then distribute water.

wah, bloodyhell. i smiled at him and walked away. UNCLE, ITS NOT LIKE MY FAULT RIGHT??!

oh, the part to distribute milk was the highlight of the ugly event man.. everybody was like scavengers las.. nobody wants to queue. everybody is rushing and even running to the counter. they swear and curse at the organization.. we tried to help, nobody appreciates. initially, we distribute milk like, one person one. in the end?

everybody gave up. they want how many just give las.. they happy we also happy. haha... we ended up distributing carton by carton. i was feeling like a santa claus then. oh wells...

we definitely had a great time bitching bout all these people. but all in all, its a really great experience. i like it though.. should take part more. haha... maybe after my As.

oh, one more thing to confess. lynn did not touch her books at all for today. feeling remorsful. but, i still dont wanna touch them. met up with wenn for dinner. chatted quite alot, i always have a lot of things to talk with the lessies las..

we're still the best. =)

dinner with zhigang and all.

8:32 AM

hey.. right now.. my brain is not functioning anymore. therefore, im here typing this entry with whatever that comes into my mind.
Monday: S09 clique went pizza hut with Tazmania chua, haha. its was a nice reunion though.
kris and gang was so chweet.............
here's the pics we took.

the gurls.

following day? S09 clique was duper tired las.... i missed my noon nap on monday. so im like, u-better-dun-provoke-me-when-im-tired mood, yeah....
char, mag, fel and me are like totally 'dead' during GP lesson. haha.. but who cares. WAHAHAHAHAHAB!
nobody gives a hoot about him.

anyways, we witness the release of A levels results on wednesday. well, i would like to comment that, it was a good experience though. it successfully motivated me at that moment, let me stress, at that moment only. it also struck me that, i need to work soo much harder, i will not cry when i receive my results. i will scream with total excitement and joy. thats what im gonna do. was having mixed emotions on that day too. i feel happy for some of the seniors but really sad for some too. well, this is the harsh reality.

by the way, i got back my Chinese results too. im like... come on come on, a B3 would be enough already. im not greedy. B3... please please please.. praying to god. haha... and guess what? wah.... my chinese results is totally unexpected las(considering the fact that i slacked through all chinese lessons).... its actually an A1.

did javelin and broad jump for pe this week, thank god.. no intensive running this week. i gotta build up my leg muscles.

oh, samuel treated all of us to bubble tea today. haha, that so sweet of him. anws, sam also told me some of the facts relating to my ECs. somehow, its kinda disappointing to hear tt they're actually like this. oh wells, just an EC right?

there's school tmr. on a SATURDAY! oh gosh, im missing my sleepS las. but, i totally appreciate the teachers efforts. =) u guys rock.

alright, ive written quite a bit. gotta go now.

ciaoz.