6:59 AM
is this what adulthood is about? or are we only at the evolution towards adulthood. everybody seems to be at the down period of their life now.
i wanna go back to being a student. i dont wanna grow up. i dont wish to be expose to the harsh reality. but this is life, there's nuth we can do about it.
i seriously miss the times where we just wakie, go school.. study hard and just have fun. we dont have to worry too much about our future. our common goal is just to persevere and ace our As. that was our goal.
but now, we have to make decisions that we dont want to. and... ive gotta accept what i disliked.
never ever imagine myself in that school.. to think that aft my As, i was confident that i could enter at least a local uni. i didnt expect myself to land up not being able to go anywhere.
is this what to expect after ive worked so hard for my As?
this is totally unfair and riduculous.
actually i think that the degree im taking is not that bad. at least its from the university of london in collaboration with london school of economics and politcal science. i guess, its established enough. its just that... i gotta obtain my degree through sim.and the brandname of sim sucks.
i dunno, but i still cant make myself accept that school yet. i guess i have to try really hard to make myself at least feel neutral to the sch, if not everyday is gonna be a torture to me when school starts. sigh..
decided to transfer to economics and managment already. and... its a must to apply for local uni again next yr.
if only i have the money, i'll be overseas already.
if only i was smarter.
if only.......... there's no way for if only in this world. u gotta do ya best in everything. follow your heart and do what is right.
people used to tell me, its okay to fail if u have given ya best. AT LEAST uve done ya best.
but to me... its like, since i have already given my best and i still fail, den im really a failure.
detest gg to work. its so boring! i wanna end my job asap! so i can start hanging out with my friends again. thats the way to bring back the lively lynn. u guys dunno how dull i am at work man... people must be thinking im super anti-social.
guys, lets go roller blading soon! wild wild wet and escape would be fun too! i think we need outdoor activites to loosen us up!
alrights, everybody lets just try to cheer up. life is more than all this.
char: i know that ure experiencing a down period of ya life now. but u gotta know, that we're always here for you. dont always keep everything to yourself. and.... there's always other better choices out there. since uve told urself ure letting go, then let it go. be more open-hearted. take things easy. u'll be happier. you still got us. =)
we love you!
and one thing, im single as well! haha.. we still stuck in the singles club. but thats no big deal! we got each other!
lou: all i can say is.. follow your heart. u know we want the best for you. i understand ya fear of going overseas alone. but as ive told you, its gonna be hard at the beginning. but sooner or later, u will adapt. i know ure gonna miss us too! and u definitely will cry! but we will be friends forever right? we will still be here when ure back =)
4:00 AM
people, here's the pictures!
this is our trip to miss lee and mr yap love nest. haha... a mini housewarming party.
5:41 PM
waddup! im blogging from my workplace right now.
Aunt has flown to HK for some meeting this week. gotta take public transport to work alrd. =(
oh wells, its a monday. and im havin monday blue!
okay... let me see what ive done durin the weekends.
went town with char on saturday. shopped around... initially i only wanted to go check up on the digi cam that i wanna buy. i end up buying one in the end. wanted the canon digital ixus 70 in the first place. but it wasnt very pretty and it doesnt have stabilizer. so i didnt really like it. then the uncle recommended me this casio cam which was really pretty! haha.. i thought it would be more expensive but its only 399 las. and it has got auto-stabilizer. being a typical singaporean, i was kinda worried that i cannot go down to town again before the promotion ends, i bought the cam on the spot. and guess what, i got the pink colour one. haha! that is soooo not me can! but oh wells...
met up with lou and sam in the night. went for a drink at Balcony. hmm, dont really like tt place. its not air-conditioned at all! i was feeling so damn hot the whole time. but we chatted a lot. and... i miss sam! ive always miss sam. haha...
went out with kor on sunday. very concidentally, both of us were wearin the same colour series las. the moment i see him, im like.... "kor! why u wear this colour? now we look more like couple already las!" then tt idiot, tried to walk far far from me when we're in town. haha...
bump into quite a few people in town. my qss band junior, he's grown into a fine young man. haha...
kris and zhigang, chatted with them. i bumped into yanshan too! that gurl.. always goes... "LYNN!" whenever she sees me.. so cute. haha... i cant wait for next weekend to come along!!!
appealed to the unis already. juz posted miss lee's referral letter as well.
am keepin my finger crossed now.
PLEASE ACCEPT ME INTO YOUR UNI!!!
10:09 AM
waddup, im back! okay, actually im feeling kinda tired right now. but somehow feel that i wanna blog bout my life. haha... let me see...i am totally sadded by the fact that im rejected by all 3 unis. come on man, where is the reason in this? i worked so hard for my As, and all i get are these rejection letters? my grades arent that bad man... this is darn ridiculous. this leave us with no way to go. if only i can, i'd already be studying overseas right NOW! no seconds thoughts bout it man.... the Unis should really open up MORE places to cater to the dragon babies las. this really sucks.
have ended my job at TP already. currently taking up the position of accounts asst in my auntie's company. i realise ive been changing jobs like every month las. though it really helps to expose me to different workin environments, but... resumes may nt be very pretty in the future. but who cares man, i wanna experience more things while i can. but office work is really boring las! it can really make a person dull las, i can like not talk to anybody at all for the whole day las. all i can say is BORING! but guess i'll just tahan through this for the sake of $$$. haha =)
im currently in the clubbing fever can. friends and me decided to go clubbing last wed cuz thurs is a public holis. we wanted to go Zouk initially, but the queue is freaking long can. so we decided to change to MOS. hmmm, i like the atmosphere on the dancefloor. MINUS the disgusting guys. man, im not there to fall prey to ya desires! but i guess, most of the ppl goes club with tt kinda attitude.. i think its more of us that are too innocent for that kinda environment. pubbing is the next best alternative to clubbing =)
met up with the guys on fri night for dinner. pop by brian's place before gg to holland V to meet the rest. poor jimmy was bitten by a golden retriever las! its nose was bleeding non-stop. i was feeling so sorry for jimmy. he looked so unhappy. so sad. wonder whether its cuz his companions have all 'gone' leaving him alone. but still, i seriously hope tt nothing happens to him, if not i really cannot imagine how brian is gonna take tt blow las. all of us had nasi lemak at holland v. not nice one. ppl, dont try it. haha...
made a new friend recently. he stays near me. haha, now ive got company home. considering that fact tt i was like so foreign to this place when i moved in. there wasnt anybody that i know las. he is the first friend that ive made here =)
alrights, i guess thats about it. but one and only thing that is gg to complete my life now would be... an acceptance letter from the UNIS. like seriously las, its the thing that im hoping for the most right now. arghz, darn it.
