common test mood.
ive been using alot of the freaking F word this week. somehow, i just couldnt control my temper and that word just blurts out of my mouth.
i am so disappointed with my results. no improvement. im so stuck with that freakin grades.
somehow, i discover that whenever i get back my confidence, i'll be hit back to my original spot with a uper huge 'thud', then i have to start building up my confidence again. i hate the feeling of disappointment.
this is the turning point of my life. whatever i do this yr will determine the rest of my life. you understand the utmost impact its gonna have on me? i remember telling myself that im gonna go into the lecture hall and trash the hell-outta the damn shit paper. but, i guess... i lost.
BUT, no matter what... i have to continue with this race. its a race against myself. i wil overcome all odds and survive. i will and i have to. seriously, i guess i've learn alot this yr, in terms of life and all. sometimes, things just dont go the way you want it to be.
anws, sorry to all if ive been rather crude with this entry. but, i just need to vent my anger. i'll really like to express my gratitude to brian toh. he's always there for me. he's always able to motivate me. lessies, im missin u gurls.
now, the battle continues.
