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jobless. uec.

5:43 AM

waddup people! lynn is back!
been lazing at home for the past 2 days. updates?
hmmm, ive dyed my hair and finally bought my ipod video. muahahha.. okok, i know i am spending alot here. but im determinded to work to earn back the amt ive spent. but the worry here is, lynn is not searching for job at all. actually, im kinda dependent on the job agency. im just waiting for them to get back to me. ya, im not exactly in a rush work but im broke broke broke! wha! i want spending power! i realise that there are many things that i have not done before and dont dare to do. i dont like tt kinda feeling. i feel that i shld expose myself to the real world and gain more experience in life. though i kept telling myself tt, but... its not easy to really get down to doing it. mama told me auntie lucy need some1 to do the accounting work in her company. accounting ehz! it can help me judge whether i wanna join the business industry not. but, i didnt wanna take up the job cuz i rmb couz told me tt auntie lucy dont like me. yeah, so i dont wanna work under her as well.

ok, this is a serious para huh. i was looking at UEC's blog the other day. it suddenely dwelled on me that im quite silly. i felt kinda stupid and disappointed. yeah... im always getting so hyped up and excited whenever i see him or anyone talk about him. ive placed alot of emphasis on him. sometimes, i'll even defend him whenever the gurls try to criticise him. argh, stupid me.
i realised that im feeling such great disappointment cuz ive really fallen for him le bahz. but, ive decided to get him out of my life. i think that im silly cuz..... why shld i place him as the center emphasis of my life when he dont even know me? im like so so so so so so insigificant to him las. somehow, i feel i shld move on. anws, all of us have graduated from pjc already. there will nt be anymore chance where i will assiocate with him. ya, so it shld be quite easy to get him 'out' bahz. i believe, time will prove me right.

lynn is in the midst of growing up! i need to experience more life!