is this what adulthood is about? or are we only at the evolution towards adulthood. everybody seems to be at the down period of their life now.
i wanna go back to being a student. i dont wanna grow up. i dont wish to be expose to the harsh reality. but this is life, there's nuth we can do about it.
i seriously miss the times where we just wakie, go school.. study hard and just have fun. we dont have to worry too much about our future. our common goal is just to persevere and ace our As. that was our goal.
but now, we have to make decisions that we dont want to. and... ive gotta accept what i disliked.
never ever imagine myself in that school.. to think that aft my As, i was confident that i could enter at least a local uni. i didnt expect myself to land up not being able to go anywhere.
is this what to expect after ive worked so hard for my As?
this is totally unfair and riduculous.
actually i think that the degree im taking is not that bad. at least its from the university of london in collaboration with london school of economics and politcal science. i guess, its established enough. its just that... i gotta obtain my degree through sim.and the brandname of sim sucks.
i dunno, but i still cant make myself accept that school yet. i guess i have to try really hard to make myself at least feel neutral to the sch, if not everyday is gonna be a torture to me when school starts. sigh..
decided to transfer to economics and managment already. and... its a must to apply for local uni again next yr.
if only i have the money, i'll be overseas already.
if only i was smarter.
if only.......... there's no way for if only in this world. u gotta do ya best in everything. follow your heart and do what is right.
people used to tell me, its okay to fail if u have given ya best. AT LEAST uve done ya best.
but to me... its like, since i have already given my best and i still fail, den im really a failure.
detest gg to work. its so boring! i wanna end my job asap! so i can start hanging out with my friends again. thats the way to bring back the lively lynn. u guys dunno how dull i am at work man... people must be thinking im super anti-social.
guys, lets go roller blading soon! wild wild wet and escape would be fun too! i think we need outdoor activites to loosen us up!
alrights, everybody lets just try to cheer up. life is more than all this.
char: i know that ure experiencing a down period of ya life now. but u gotta know, that we're always here for you. dont always keep everything to yourself. and.... there's always other better choices out there. since uve told urself ure letting go, then let it go. be more open-hearted. take things easy. u'll be happier. you still got us. =)
we love you!
and one thing, im single as well! haha.. we still stuck in the singles club. but thats no big deal! we got each other!
lou: all i can say is.. follow your heart. u know we want the best for you. i understand ya fear of going overseas alone. but as ive told you, its gonna be hard at the beginning. but sooner or later, u will adapt. i know ure gonna miss us too! and u definitely will cry! but we will be friends forever right? we will still be here when ure back =)
